Last night at church after the first few worship songs were sung and it was time to settle our hearts, there was 2 minutes of time just to BE STILL and pray. This time was precious, and allowed me to get the distractions away and out of my mind from the day.
Here's a little bit of how my prayer during that time went, though...
"Lord, help me get ready to hear what you will say. Be with me during this time and let me learn all I can. Allow me to focus. Help me...be with me...do things for me...." and the prayer went like that for the whole prayer. At no point did I ask the Lord to really rid me of myself and come in on my behalf. At no point was I asking the Lord to take over my thoughts and make them His. It was incredibly self-centered... and even as I was praying I got sick of hearing "me, me, me."
Was my prayer wrong? NO. But did I need to check myself and see what my motives were for being there? YES! Did I want it to all be about me, or did I want to learn so I could advance the kingdom? The answer was: me. I love the song "Lead me to the Cross" because of the line, "rid me of myself, I belong to you. Oh lead me, lead me to the cross."
John 3:30"He must increase, but I must decrease."
Working on being less "me" centered and making it more about Him. Dang, I'm selfish.
